My Experience of Mental Health Services in Ireland

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It is difficult to start writing about an experience so personal, let alone when factoring in stigma and the nature of the experience, which was alienating and unsupportive in general.

I began availing of the mental health service in Ireland when I was 19. I was in my 1st year of college and as issues surfaced along with an alcohol dependency, I decided to seek the support of the college conselling service. As the pressure began to build in my final year, I resorted to self-harm to deal with mounting issues. After one such incident, in desperation, I went to the college doctor who prescribed anti-depressants. At that point, I entered into the psychiatric service.

This experience isn’t black and white; there were some very helpful and encouraging mental health professional I met along the way however, the overarching experience is one of despair. I felt like it didn’t matter what I said, I was never heard. The judgment was final; I was depressed and in need of medication. I tried explaining that I did not feel down for extended periods and on the contrary, my moods would fluctuate wildly, sometimes daily. The clinician made notes, asked questions only requiring a ‘yes’ or ‘no’ answer and then made a judgement; depressed.

Eventually I realised that it didn’t matter what I said, so I began to use this to my advantage and to justify my own attempts to self-medicate. I suffered from anxiety and would request Valium, which the clinician readily prescribed. A year later I was weaned off Valium, after begin diagnosed as chemically dependent. I was also warned that this may effect my job prospects in the future, should an employer request my medical records. I decided, for the sake of my future, that I wouldn’t avail of the mental health service again.

However, things got progressively worse to the point that I ended up in hospital and again was referred to a psychiatrist. I relayed my history to the clinician, including a history of addiction to Valium. The clinician nodded and took notes, made the judgment ‘depressed’ and prescribed Valium for anxiety. I threw away the prescription and again vowed to deal with issues myself and never to speak to a psychiatrist again.

Two trips to the A&E later, I was referred to a psychiatrist for what I thought was more nodding and note taking. He asked questions, I responded with the expected ‘yes’ ‘no’ answers but this time, unusually, he asked me to elaborate.

This lead to a diagnosis of bipolar disorder which I have been successfully treated for after years of medication, counseling and support.

Today, I’m grateful to those who listened and did not rush to judgment.


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